Ok, if you are reading this, I hope you will bear with me because I am doing it on my phone...as usual!  I do EVERYTHING on my phone. It occured to me one day that I am twenty again! Yippee!!! Wait.  Why do my knees hurt then? I am at the exact same place in my life as I was at 20, except I don't have the slim body, the incredible drive to get everything under the sun accomplished or the never ending energy!!!  So what has happened here?  I just woke up from a bad dream I think.  I lost 175 pounds recently....but he still hasn't moved all his stuff out of my house yet!  Haha! I have no job, no money and no clue what to do next.  But, I do have some incredible things on my side.  My beautiful, brilliant, wonderful kids, a place to live, super friends and the most supportive family ever.  And I have ME! I haven't figured it all out, but I do know that I've got tons of life experience and I will figure this out.  And probably have fun doing it.  I do find that since I am way past being sad, I am actually enjoying the FREEDOM! There is nobody here to tell me that I should have done this...or I should have remembered that.  I am important again.  I am special.  I AM interesting and I do have thoughts on things.  I don't have to try to be something I'm not to keep somebody around that I really don't even want to be around anyway. Why would I have done that?  I know why.  I was not able to be myself because...well, lots of reasons.  But my kids and I are going to have so much fun and I cannot wait!  I am going to explore all the things I have been ignoring and we are going to have a great future!!    I keep thinking that one thing that keeps me going right now....they opened the MIAMI ICE shaved ice place in town.  It's just a shame I have to order the...JUSTIN BIEBER.  ICK.